For those who, like myself, are positive minded, you already know this. Positivity is not an automatically natural, constant or easy thing. I think this is because we are human and imperfect and I think that to see things in the negative light is the easiest thing to do. Conversly,  to identify the negative and then find the silver lining is one of the toughest things to do.

Admittedly, I have my days where I can’t see past the negative. This past month and half has been an incredibly difficult time. Many of you have been following Me for some time now so there’s no need to explain why this is so. For those who haven’t – just know that it’s been a trying time in My life.  I’ve felt an immense weight of responsibility, faced with some family health problems, not to mention the every day occurances that just makes Me wonder who’s Cheerios I pissed in (I call these “What the fuck?!” moments).

Often times I think about Karama – what I’ve done in the past that is currently affecting My future.  Keeping My Karmic slate clean is something that’s important to Me, not because I fear what would happen if I didn’t but because I give a damn about the impact of My reactions on others. When something negative happens to Me, I like to take a moment and reflect upon what I have done and how I can correct it.  I never want to have a negative impact on anyone around Me, intentional or otherwise, but I realize that I am human and impefect. These things do happen.

After a few days of wallowing and feeling bad for Myself this past week, I’ve finally overcome the negativity and am determined to stay positive. To hike up My positive knee socks and jump back into the game where I belong. If I’m honest with Myself, I know that I’m not happy unless I’m in the mix of it all, fighting for what I want. So… here I am.

I’m extremtly happy about this up and coming tour. While it’s not shaping up, yet, to be what I want I know it eventually will. I’m happy to have a session later this week where I get the slap the ever lovin’ shit out of some little maggot. That puts a smile on My face.

Back to kicking some ass,

Derek

So, last night I found myself in a rather shitty mood. You know the one – where you just want to wallow in your pissy mood and tell everyone to fuck off.  We all get them, don’t we? So there I was, emailing clients with My travel schedule and I get a response from someone in the DC area :

And waste my money? Yeah right! 300 bucks to get molested by an average looking woman? .. yeah

If I could have video taped My facial response when I read this I’m sure it would have been hysterical. I’m sure My eyes widened as I took a deep breath and then… proceeded to laugh My fool head off!  I laughed so long and so loudly that My younger brother had to come into my office and ask Me “what the fuck is Your problem?!”

I’m sure you’re wondering what My response was, so here it is :

Of course I’m average looking – did you expect green hair and warts?  Really, you think you’d be molested? Man-handled, surely. Slapped down into a position of subservience (where you ought to be, by the by), most certainly. But MOLESTED? Surely not!

Interestingly enough, he didn’t respond back. I have to admit that I’m a bit disappointed, I wanted to continue the banter. Kudos to him though, he brought Me back to being my normal, chipper self.  There’s nothing like a cheeky bitch to lighten Your mood. I almost wish he would session with Me so that I can sharpen my teeth on his bones. Oh well, I’m sure the bitches that DO session with Me love what I do to them. Bless each one of you little maggots.

So, for those who love Me and want to session with me, here are my dates :

• Nov. 30 Chicago
• Dec. 1 Detroit
• Dec. 2 Cleveland
• Dec. 3 Pittsburgh
• Dec. 4 Philadelphia
• Dec. 5-6 Rochester
• Dec. 7 Hartford
• Dec. 8 Boston
• Dec. 9 New York City
• Dec. 10 Long Island
• Dec. 11 Washington, DC
• Dec. 12 Cary NC

Don’t hesitate! Make sure to book your session with Me now. I have limited slots open and they are going fast – despite My average looks.

I can’t wait to see you all and beat you in to submission. God I love that!

xoxox

Derek

So after a small sojourn on Tumblr, I’ve come back to WordPress. Tumblr, while incredibly fun, is too much of a social network for me.  I need something that’s a BLOG – so here I am, back with WP. The good news is that they’ve updated the shit out of the application so it’s a lot easier to post photos as well as videos within the blog. I actually DON’T have to petition Christ to post a video anymore. Thank God.

So – back to the posting.

xoxo

Derek